So now, I’m stuck with thoughts and decisions. I can’t seem to find out what I really want. In life, in future.

I missed the deadline for the application dates for NUS. Looking at the courses NTU is offering, none of them appeals to me. SMU, SIM? Is way to expensive. I will have to go on a part time track for that.

SG, why is your education system, so filled with high expectations, complicated and limited. OTL.
I feel like shooting myself in the head now.

I’m so stuck with, what to do man. Continue with further studies? Or Work with my awesomely pathetic Diploma cert. lol. If study, study what? D;

I kinda don’t want to do anything with IT anymore. Look at what MIT did to me. As much as I like technology. I’m not cut out for it. Esp programming. OTL Well, working as a Tech Support was kinda fun. So. I think I enjoyed my Customer Service days.

Design is… also out of the box. Oh god. lol. Dad wants me to take management, so i can help him out with his company…which I have no idea if I am able to sit through all that.

I think, I should pursue my dream #10, go and be a Taitai.

Dear oh dear.
Maybe I should take senseis’ advices to be a teacher, or customer service related jobs.

I really am utterly clueless now.

Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends It’s time to say goodbye
Just be friends All we gotta do
Just be friends Just be friends…

It came to mind in the early morning yesterday
As if I gathered broken pieces of glass

What the heck is this? Drips from my cut finger
Is this what we really hoped for?

I knew it at the bottom of my heart, the hardest choice would be the best
My self-love refuses it and repeats self-contradiction
When can I tell it to you?

In the slowly decaying world, I’m struggling but it’s the only way
Carving your faded smiles, I pulled out the plug

I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
Nothing is left at the end of the unchained me
Coincidences that sticked us degenerates into the dark and are broken in pieces
“No matter what we do, life is just like that” I mumbled
Somebody’s tears flow down the dried cheeks

All we gotta do　Just be friends
It’s time to say goodbye Just be friends
All we gotta do　Just be friends
Just be friends Just be friends…

Yesterday a tranquil night made me realize
It’d be useless to pick up fallen petals

Because it’d never bloom again
It’s tiny but already dead on my palms
Our time stopped long ago

I remember the season we met first and your grace smile
Bringing up old issues, we hurt each other as badly as possible
Our minds are full of thorns

With this continuous dull relationship
Grievously I can’t change my mind
I still love you, I don’t wanna be apart from you, but I have to tell you

It’s raining heavily in my mind, I’m stunned, I’m standing dead, my vision is blurry
Despite my determination, the pain is still penetrating
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it’s over
We have to leave without turning back

Just once, just once, if I could have my wish to come true
I’d be born again and again and go see you on those days

I screamed with my hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain
Nothing is left at the end of the unchained me
The bond between us has come apart and is dying away in everyday
Goodbye, my sweetheart, it’s over
We have to leave without turning back

It’s all over

恋したいな。まじて。

p/s : 関西ベンも可愛いな～～

Week5 coming to an end. Remaining seven weeks are still waiting.

Short post for resolutions and thank yous.
Peeps who has been with me since god knows when. Thank you for tolerating me until now. Also Congratuations on not being able to shake me off your buddy list. /shot.

Hopefully. The world won’t end this year. No more pathethic annoying viruses, No more disasters.

People. Please have a healthy 2010 and stay safe and sound!

Hopefully. I am able to do proper updates in 2010. HAHA /shot.

Frankly speaking. I’m worried.
I’m very worried that I can’t do it to their expectations.
Cause firstly, my memory’s like a goldfish’s. I’m not exactly a fast learner either.

Been writing down notes and reminders on my sketchbook but I’m still confused at.. majority of the time.

Was told I need to work faster tomorrow compared to today? I wonder if I can really hit the expectations.
I mean, I really want to prove to myself I can do it too.

だから。頑張れなくちゃ。
自信もって！俺！

Gotta find ways of how to make myself work faster tml.
ファイート。オウ！

ね、僕どうするばいいの？

Monday, marks the start of my internship!
‘m really really nervous. Hoping I won’t screw things up.
Sam, don’t get the old habits eating into you!

Really. Really hoping I won’t be late.
Ought to turn in already! It’s midnight! OTL.

Goodnight world.

It’s kinda sad actually. I have ended up feeling attached to that lab and the wacky people in there. And it took me weeks to get used to MEL’S FART AND BURPS and now I have to leave the lab. WTH MAN. I’m going to miss FYP days. Definitely one of the best moments in my poly life.
Busy, yes. But Filled with so much fun.

Ended with a blast, well, kinda. Looking forward to the gathering okay? : D

Bet there’s no lab as insane as ours. : D
Went around taking photos abusing HuiFen’s camera. FENFEN ♥ WE GO NYP DRINK TEH SOMEDAY OKAY? : DD

FYP days were really great. Thanks guys. : D Will miss you loads.

FENFEN, 俺の紅茶アイボ！ Tea addicts really. And my fellow Cancerian “mother”.

OUR HOT THAILAND TRANNY SECRETARY CHIOBU. He’s very knowledgeable. : D
He was… really drunk yesterday. Which was LULZY. His long hair is.. awesome.

Judy and Mel. : D
Judy, thanks for picking me up and companying me for lunch most of the time 8D.

Our.. 5th Lion in the class? Just because his name’s Ryan. LOL.
FELLOW CCK-ER. Let’s go pasar malam soon! Before it moves.

And we went to the 5th floor to disturb other FYP peeps. LOL.
JUDY AH YOU MADE THIS PHOTO LIKE IT’S HAUNTED. XD

Part of the 07/05.
SX, going to miss you talking about Lolicon. LOL REALLY.

S333!!! Although some of them are still missing. >_> wei.

She’s one of the nicest lecturer you can ever have. ♥

Then headed to town with wanwan for the hetalia Dinner. : D
WANWAN MAMA LOVES YOU. IT’S OKAY IF YOU DON’T COME HOME FOR DINNER.
♥♥♥♥ I hope Mr wang wasn’t angry? ;A;

Had to leave early cause I was kinda tired and toe was PMS-ing. DX
Alright, gotta hang the laundry now. /dies.

Class was to meet up at Shaw House. But we were all “WHERE IS SENSEI” till we realized the person infront of us is him /dies. Why do you look so much more younger in casual. Lynn’s comment was the best. “HIS PUPPY EYES POWERED UP IN CASUAL”, so died at that.Went to TCC for a farewell lunch/tea.

Zomg the Coffee Frappe thing with red beans was awesome. HEE. And yes, that was lunch+Breakfast. /dies.

Class photo.

Will miss sensei badly when he goes back. Aha.
Ms Sato, we’ll try not to be annoying and noisy when you teach us. /dies.

Certain things have been upsetting me recently. >:
So much so that there’s a great temptation to stop one of my hobbies.
:<
It’s prolly a sign.

Why people just can’t chunk standards aside and have pure fun. /sigh.
Didn’t manage to meet Jeanette today. That silly woman, totally couldn’t contact her at all.
Wanted to see her just before she leaves later in the morning also can’t. Dang.

Smoke and Fire ; Cigars and Ashes.
Let me burn the world with you ♥

trying not to die here.

geh. 0830-1800 is kinda like hell.

;__;

gotta keep track ;
アリス　－　ハトの国のアリス
コナツ　－　０７－ＧＨＯＳＴ　
チエ　　－　ＰＥＲＳＯＮＡ４
雪代　　－　桃組プラス戦記
アゲハ　－　Ｄｉ［ｅ］ｃｅ
Vicious – Death Connection
Naoto – DOGS ;

STOP ADDING ANYMORE TO THE LIST
andzomg.more girls.