I don’t think I can ever bring myself to finish up on CC. D:
Given on how I know the ED’s going to be like.

It’s such a depressing plot. Even for 358/2 Days too.
Square enix needs to stop being so mean to us and produce such awesome selling depressing plots. orz.

On side note, it’s said we’re having a week’s holiday due to H1N1, Now I’ve no idea whether to celebrate in joy or… think it’s a bad thing.

I’ll prolly end up procrastinating as usual

“Thinking of you wherever you are.
We pray for our sorrows to end.
And hope that our hearts will blend.
Now I will step forward to realize this wish.
And who knows: starting a new journey may not be so hard or maybe it has already begun.
There are many worlds, but they share the same sky.
One sky, one destiny.”

僕なら、できるも知らない。

I really miss this. .__.

When I woke up from the dream where we were still in that Sci-Tech room doing our little stuffs, only then I realize, how much I really miss you.

And uh, I need to kick Mr procrastination away.
He needs to pester someone else instead of me.
I’m dying to get some work done. But. Argh.
This is annoying.

I don’t know where to start from. /face palms

Many loves to my friends. ;D

最近、本当に忙しいです。
学校のことはちょっと…ストレスだね。
皆のペースは、とても早い。
何とかあきらめろと思い出した。何時でも泣くて、もう疲れだった。
でも、父さんそんな頑張ってに。私も、あきらめない。自分に信じてになくちゃ。
自分て頑張ってください！行け!俺！自信もうって！できるぞう!!

恋のことね。
君の事は大好きな感じ..君なら知らないってばいい。
えーん、何時でこれからままでいい。
何も欲しくないだ。

“夢をだきしめろ。”

lol.prolly filled with grammatical errors. haven’t got time to.. practice lately. or even revise. I think I can forget about thinking of getting JLPT3 by the end of this year. /dies.
忙しい—–忙しい. orz.

Oh yes. FF13. Lighting. Is so kick ass. Love the trailer. I really do. <3. I love her summon!! Argh! skdjfs. &hearts;

Maaya Sakamoto!! You sound so kick ass as her!! Ah. Seriously. Seiyuus are wonders man. It’s really one of my greatest dreams to be one.

Ono D as Snow is.. lolol. I don’t know. I have a feeling I won’t like Snow’s personality. /dies.

Square Enix needs to release more info on FF13 versus. Noctis!! And I’m dying to know the cast damn it! slkdjfs. GAH.

Would really help if I can ever be free just to go out and have a fresh breath of air.
Year 3 has been really passing really fast with the usual routine of.
Dreading weekdays. Awaiting for Sundays. Jap classes are so much more relaxed and “my pace”
僕の日本語クラスは…本当の楽しいだよ。
とても楽しい、そして、皆は素敵の人だ。
皆が大好き！！！♥

NYP wise. Days certainly have not been boring with those peeps around. And the occasional making fun of PY. XD
It’s only the work load that is frustrating…and the fact that I’ve been kicking myself to play “catch” with the class… but certainly still falling behind. lol.

Oh wells. What goes round, goes round. ;D

Let’s hope for the better, we can hang on.
You too Dad, thank you for everything up to now, and prolly the future. If there’s anything we can help..to improve this family’s situation…please speak up. D:

I would try to go to msia if school allows me. I think our family really needs a break after so much incidents happening. )=

*SPARKLES*
S-SINCE, I CAN’T SLEEP, CAUSE I’M SUFFERING NUTS (Suffer? Where, how?)
I went ahead to watch ACC.

AND
AND.

”俺が、お前の生きた証だ。”

Z-ZACK, I.. I LOVE YOU. SKJDFS ♥
Why, Zack, why. /dies/

Oh, Bonus for Bene?
もう…忘れんなよ

and.. Bonus for Twin. (And prolly wabbit)
HAVE A MILO KING
CHEF SEPH. 8D

AND OH GODS. RENO. SO CUTE ♥
S-slightly more appearance for Turks. I happies.
I should like. Sleep now. orz.

Today, was pretty much a busy day. orz. Had to run around since morning. To market, to jii chan’s house, back home, to PS, to istana, to Paragon OTL||| But, the trip to Istana was kinda worth it. I mean, I’ve always liked looking at architecture and stuffs. (Think it’s cause my dad’s career. LOL)

Main buliding

Well, it was pretty much a hassle for mama tan and me to get it. Cause she had a pocket knife as her keychain, and I had my wine opener in my bag. We weren’t allowed it. Officer told us to go out, place them with someone(where) safe and come back in without the need to queue. But, when we tried going in, the officers at the guard didn’t let us so. So we’re slightly unhappy about it and called nii san and the rest to look around first. But they were awesome. They got the very officer who told us to go out and come back without queuing to come and fetch us in. LOL. Yay. Thanks a load man.

The route in was a long stretch of road in, with grass land on the left, and a pond with lotus flowers. The plants there are very, very green.:D “The plants here are happy” I can’t remember who said that. XDDD.

They really have a variety of trees you know! So awesome. XD Then we walked to the main house. I, love the interior, it’s a pity we’re not allowed to take photos in the interior. The furniture is awesome! /is a furniture whore/ Love the walls, and the chairs. There was a stain glass too. Interior was utterly awesome. <3 Should drag dad along when Istana is open for public next time.

Then we walked around the park?Front-yard?(IDK LOL) Where it has fountains, and staircases. I, utterly love the grass, and wouldn’t mind lying on it if the sun weren’t blazing and glaring right at your face if you do so.

I took a few more photos, although I think wabbit’s ones are so much better. <3
This is really tempting me to get a better camera and stop using hp cameras to take photos OTL.

What I mean by the plants are happy. XD

And the flowers, they are rich in colours. Argh, annoying human came into my picture.

Full view of the main house from the fountain area?

I don’t know what you call these things. 8D But I like them. Even in movies

When you’re under it? HUMANS!ARGH

Corner of the main house! I think this is the favourite photo I took among the rest. Cause it doesn’t look that bad.OTL.

So yeah, we kinda headed to PS to chill out, cause the weather wasn’t very nice. And went to arcade to see Nene pair and risu. Returned kouji and bene’s thumbdrive. Wanted to hug them but was sweaty and stickeh and smelly from the istana trip orz. Then proceeded to playing taiko(on a lousy machine) with wabbit as though we’re doing acrobatics. LOL. Cause we ended up tired and sweaty after playing it./dies. NEVER, I’ve sweated like nuts after playing taiko. OTL

They arcaded abit and I dragged imou to paragon to meet nee san for dinner. NEE SAN IS PRETTY TODAY. Dump imou with her while I headed to Sushi tei to meet up with the rest. /dies. SALMON SASHIMI WAS HEAVEN. ♥ Green tea was awesome too. Nyan~♥

Then headed to bela’s place to extort money. 8D And tried on Nii san’s boots. OMG WABBIT, I’M SO HAPPY CAN. THAT I REALLY CAN BE TALLER THAN YOU. LOLOLOL(WHUT) And rushed home cause Imou looks like she was going to die from boredom. ;A; I’m sorry for dragging you out for the whole day. I.. I will find your x-men cartoon for you. orz. And mama, I’m sorry for dropping your psp. orz.

Am drained. Should sleep soon if brain isn’t awake. OTL.

… I kinda feel bad for my word press account. It’s so neglected even when I’m online like almost daily.
Wasn’t missing for the pass month. Pretty much rotted myself away at home. And occasional going outs.

Managed to go on a family trip to cruise, it’s been ages since we went out altogether. I hope there’s another family outing soon.

That aside, grandfather was hospitalized, he’s out now. But replying on a oxygen tank. Dad says his days are limited. But I totally refuse to agree. Jii chan, you have to live as long as you can. Life, is a wonder. (also a pain in the ass when things don’t go you way) and there’s so much things, you need to tell us, and pass on to us.

Departures is not something, I’m very good at. I… never liked saying goodbye to someone, who I won’t get to see for a long time. Or, eternity. Then again, I’ve never known, how does it feel like to have, someone you know, departing, and then… you can never see that very person again.

Death, is a scary thing, yet, people say. It’s part of life, and death is not the end of a person. Cause, that very person, still remains. In your memories. In your heart.

Yet still, this selfish part of me. Doesn’t want it to only be a memory. But an eternity. I prolly don’t make sense here.

Off to a lighter update. I went and have another photoshoot with my APH peeps. They are filled with so much love. So much that it blinds.

My fav photo (with me LOL, damn why so BHB)

We look like tourists. Haha. XD

Then, caught quite a number of movies with my Dad. : D just came back from one. Shinjiku incident. Interesting film i must say. : D

Oh, there was also at least one, kara session. Haha.
And classes are going on fine, and interesting. Not to forget I get to bully my teacher too

So now, I’m left with, one last week of holidays left. Oh darn, I…do not look forward to school. Really.
After reading someone’s post. I feel, kinda left behind. As in, not in the way that, I’m being forgotten. But the way that.

My friends are all moving on with life. Having a target to live for. Knowing what they want, while I’m pretty much still…in my own lala world. I don’t think I can catch up. It’s such a fast pace moving world. Not to forget it’s also very demanding at the same time. It just makes me.. feel so.. left out.. and sad.

Prolly a warning that, I need to get out of the well I’m stuck in now. There’s only one life. I can’t live it by regretting it while rotting myself in this lala world. 自信もって！できるだよ!俺!

It’s start to kick-ass(whut, whut kick ass) when school starts.
Oh, dearest pals who still has thoughts for me. I ♥ you peeps.
Thank you. Really. 仲間は、俺の人生の中、大事の物だ。　何も変わらない。　君たちは大好きぞう。ずっと忘れない。この気持ち。♥

Oh, oh yes Regarding fandoms?
I’m starting to like Inoue Kazuhiko alot. OTL
I BLAME NATSUMEEEE.

Went out to watch 容疑者Ｘの献身 aka Suspect X with Risu,JS and the Nene pair today. ;A;
I-it’s awesome. Guh. FUKUYAMA. WHY YOU SO HOT. LKJSDHFLKJSDF EVEN WHEN YOU’RE AN OSSAN. OTL. Galileo series already kinda made me flail over him like nuts. But… but BUT SUSPECT X IS AWESOME. kjsdf Gah, you still look good in megane OTL FUKUYAMAAA ♥♥♥/flails

Urm, Risu, He’s exactly 40 this year. /SHOT.

I-i, I think I’m the only one who cried in the movie.Risu’s like “SAGA ARE YOU CRYING” /SHOOTS HER. OTL. Ever since the phonecall was made to say the letters were in the letter box. I’ve already started crying.all the way till the end orz OTL OTL OTL.
;A; 恋の事、理解できません!!! YUKAWA SENSEI ;A; ISHIGAMI SAN YOU YANDERE. WHY LIKE THIS. OTL OTL OTL. I don’t even recall crying or tearing for any of the Galileo drama episodes.

But yes. ;A;
I got my awesome dose of Fukuyama ♥ and they made me spill tears OTL OTL OTL.
Shall go make my juniors and friends watch it too. ARGH.
But there were really amusing parts though.
And which kinda reminds me that I’ve yet to watch that special episode(Episode Zero). /shoots self.
Young!Yukawa sensei(Haruma Miura)!! and gay scenes from what I heard /shot

Went to Kino and met up with Nee san. Had abit of mini conflict on the way home. OTL. Cause I accidentally stepped on her foot and she looked like she was going to kill me. Went ahead and rented RedCliff again!! Oh gosh, it’s so addictive. HEH. KANESHIRO, YOU ANOTHER OSSAN WHY SO HOT LA. LSJDFS YOUR CHINESEEEE ♥ I.. I.. swear, today isn’t an おっさん日.
YES RED CLIFF WHY SO GAY. AH GAY LA GAY. TWIN. ARE YOU EVEN DONE WITH IT AT YOUR SIDE. XD

Yes Twin, Night > Rapunzel now? 8D. Or your heart has been stolen by the Lake Demon why is he so pretteh. I suggest you read the.. special book when you’re done 8D, it has urm the Monk’s Ossan story when he’s young. and he’s effing hot okay. Megane!Somemore 8D And Wild’s story too! D

Got Baccano! From Wene~~ ♥ NOW I CAN WATCH AND FLAIL ALL OVER AGAIN. LSKJDFS AHHHH. CLAIREEEE ♥ LADDDDDDDD ♥ And kick myself to start watching whatever I’ve borrowed from Wene today. XD And finish Risu’s Sengoku Strays. XDDD

p/s : You should know who you’re, please please please.
Try looking into other’s perspective too. There’s no reason to rant like this, when you don’t see the efforts she’s trying to make.

Ah. Before I forget 8D
超～超リス～♫

About time to update. Yepp.
V’day was spent with absolute fun and a whole new different kind of love.
But I’ve enjoyed it. Greatly. Still, nothing beats the love from my younger sister who…bought me a stalk of huge sunflower and walked home awkwardly with it. 妹ちゃん，可愛いぞう。姉さんは、嬉しいです！！本当に、サンキュウな！！ /snuggles you like a milk bottle ♥

In anycase, NT’s paper is down.
Although I’m not very confident of..hahah scoring. orz.
Still there’s two more to go!!! Fight on girls! 8Db.
A little request here, can we still go out after our exams? XD;;

and i secretly swear, exam periods are officially Get fat Diet
/face palms.
Mass sports for the month after this. OTL|||